Mommy Guilt, Finding Time, and Religious Practice

===Mommy Guilt===

Recently I've taken up a lucrative hobby that has kept me quite busy--so much so in fact that I've hired a nanny to come live with us and help care for the household chores and my little one. We've since moved about 1,000 miles away from where we were previously, and yes, she moved with us!

But since I have hired her and she lives with us now, I feel that there is a bit of an adjustment that needs to happen. I need to get into the swing of things with her. Right now she does a fair job at cleaning when she isn't helping with the little one directly, and this is totally fine with me.

I feel like with her here I've stepped up my game as a mother. I feel almost competitive with her... that I need to spend more time with my little one so its still know that I'm still the mother. This makes me be a better mother, and probably a better person, too.

This is where the mommy guilt comes in. I felt guilty for working from home and not taking the time to be with my child.

===Finding Time===

Sometimes I wish there were more hours in the day. But I have fallen back into old habits and spend far too much time *wasting* time on the internet with things like BuzzFeed, Facebook, Netflix, Youtube, Prime, etc. If I cut these things out of my life, I think I would have a lot more time to do with what I wish.

====Religious Practice===

Not only should I find time for others, I should find some time for myself. My Pagan practice has fallen by the wayside. But now I live in an absolutely gooorrrgeous area with lots of trees and grass, 4 seasons, and lots of pastoral scenery. I will enjoy getting reacquainted with the God/dess. It will be quite nice. <3

I can't guarantee that I will be better about posting because I truly am very busy, but I will try to keep updated here.

Blessed Be Sisters and Brothers. <3

The Big PCS

My husband got orders! That means we'll be leaving our current duty station and heading somewhere new. Where that "somewhere new" is still remains a mystery. I'm hoping it's somewhere with water. :) 

I'm not very good at keeping up with my blog, as you can probably tell, and I'm really not a good Pagan, either. I've been far too busy with my businesses and watching my wee one. 

I've taken the plunge and cut off 9.5 inches of my hair recently to donate to charity. I really only meant to cut off 8 inches, but for whatever reason, the stylist took it upon herself to cut an extra 1.5 inches, leaving me quite annoyed. It took a lot for me to donate and for her to willfully take more than agreed upon is not cool. Well, I guess it's for a good cause though. 

For leaving in 2 months we really are nowhere near ready. We have tons and tons of things to get rid of, sell, or give away. It's kind of frustrating because my husband doesn't do this part of things . 

I wish I had time to do more Pagan-related activities. I suppose there are priorities, huh? I have to MAKE time for them. It isn't easy, but anything worth it usually isn't.

I need to get back into writing. I would love to... I lost all of my entries from Open Diary. I lost them a while ago but I recently discovered this when I tried to sign into my account to start writing. It really sucks... big time. I had my birth story in there, the past 7 years of my life, and I kept up with it pretty regularly. I hate them for doing this to me--I know I am not the only one who feels this way. 

Anyway, time to go to sleep (I hope). Busy day tomorrow/today! Blessed be, everyone! <3